Do you hear that?
Do you hear those ear piercing screams?
That is the sound of my muscles and joints crying out in agony and pain. Begging to never have to endure that harsh treatment again.
Alas, I have vowed to whip my own ass into shape!
Being thin is by no means a measuring stick to being in shape! I'm sore in places I can't even mention on here...not that you need the visual...
I went to the gym for the first time in almost a year and I am going back today. Even though I really don't want to. I know that in time, please let it be soon, I'll adjust and not be so sore. So, I must continue!
I'm getting older, things are getting soft and jiggly, and I don't like it.
So, Hi Ho Hi Ho it's off to the gym I go...
Friday, February 5, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Hurray for School!
The kids go back to school tomorrow, albeit with a 2 hour delay, but they are going back!
They have had off since Friday...and this Mom is ready to pull her hair out. Have been for some days now! Friday was a teacher work day and then the "Big Storm" hit on Saturday. Which in the Hampton Roads area means, life and everything it involves shuts down!
But, we have all managed to survive the snow, ice, and attitudes, and will resume our normal, ha ha ha, lives tomorrow morning.
They have had off since Friday...and this Mom is ready to pull her hair out. Have been for some days now! Friday was a teacher work day and then the "Big Storm" hit on Saturday. Which in the Hampton Roads area means, life and everything it involves shuts down!
But, we have all managed to survive the snow, ice, and attitudes, and will resume our normal, ha ha ha, lives tomorrow morning.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Reflections through a broken mirror...
Sitting here reflecting over the last year of my life, there sure have been alot of changes. Some good...some not so good...some really bad. But all those changes are what makes me the woman I am sitting here today.
I've tried to take a long hard look at myself and my life. At first, looking into that broken mirror, I couldn't see anything. Kinda hard to see the whole picture through all those broken shards. But then I stopped and really took a long hard look and you know what I discovered? That I was able to really "see" myself in each of the shards. I was able to focus on one thing at a time. Somehow, seeing my life this way seemed less daunting, less scary. I learned that there are many thing in my life that can and will make me happy. Can and will make me sad. Can and will make me angry. I don't have to focus on the big picture. If I'm having a bad day, then I focus on a piece of mirror that reflects a good thing in my life. If I'm having a good day, the I can devote some time and energy into focusing on a bad piece and hopefully making an improvement.
I learned that I don't have to be or act a certain way due to the image that I see reflecting back at me. There are many pieces that make up the image of me and I'm learning to enjoy the view of all of them!
I've tried to take a long hard look at myself and my life. At first, looking into that broken mirror, I couldn't see anything. Kinda hard to see the whole picture through all those broken shards. But then I stopped and really took a long hard look and you know what I discovered? That I was able to really "see" myself in each of the shards. I was able to focus on one thing at a time. Somehow, seeing my life this way seemed less daunting, less scary. I learned that there are many thing in my life that can and will make me happy. Can and will make me sad. Can and will make me angry. I don't have to focus on the big picture. If I'm having a bad day, then I focus on a piece of mirror that reflects a good thing in my life. If I'm having a good day, the I can devote some time and energy into focusing on a bad piece and hopefully making an improvement.
I learned that I don't have to be or act a certain way due to the image that I see reflecting back at me. There are many pieces that make up the image of me and I'm learning to enjoy the view of all of them!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Color Quiz...Pretty Accurate for me!
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Wednesday, January 27, 2010
How to ask for help?
Never in my life have I ever been good at asking for help. When my parents see me struggle, they've always been there to lend a hand, speak an encouraging word, or just be there. Mom and Dad are gone for a few months, so there really isn't any one else left to see the unspoken need.
How do you open your mouth and speak the words that may have some looking down their noses at you. Is the help really worth the price in the end? I hate feeling indebted to anyone.
I feel like my load is getting heavier...
I feel like just setting it down and walking away....
One is easier to take care of than four...
But this is my life, my responsibilities, and I have to keep on keeping on...
How do you open your mouth and speak the words that may have some looking down their noses at you. Is the help really worth the price in the end? I hate feeling indebted to anyone.
I feel like my load is getting heavier...
I feel like just setting it down and walking away....
One is easier to take care of than four...
But this is my life, my responsibilities, and I have to keep on keeping on...
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Good things on the horizon?
Well, tomorrow I'll hopefully find out if I'll be rejoining the work force. Lord, I hope so because things have been super tough for me. Change is good, but hard as hell to deal with sometimes.
That which doesn't kill us, only makes a stronger....right? That's right, right??
While I wouldn't have chosen this life for me or my girls, we will pull through and learn and grow, and hopefully, when it's all said and done...we'll all be happier people for it!
So, what does my horizon look like?
Right now, it's a little cloudy, with a chance of a thunderstorm popping up here and there...
But I know that the horizon is ever changing as long as you change your view!
That which doesn't kill us, only makes a stronger....right? That's right, right??
While I wouldn't have chosen this life for me or my girls, we will pull through and learn and grow, and hopefully, when it's all said and done...we'll all be happier people for it!
So, what does my horizon look like?
Right now, it's a little cloudy, with a chance of a thunderstorm popping up here and there...
But I know that the horizon is ever changing as long as you change your view!
So, I've decided to redo this blog...
So many things have changed over the past two years, some good some bad, but change it did.
I am blessed with three healthy, and for the most part, happy daughters. Being a single mom is the hardest job I've ever had, yet it is the most rewarding. We are taking it day by day, making our new life together work.
Hannah is 12 going on 30! She is struggling with school right now, but hopefully she is on her way to being back on track. She certainly knows her own mind and who she is...at least for right now...lol. She's into Goth/Emo, and I'm okay with that! While I might get a tad embarrassed by the way she dresses, I know..okay, hope that it is just a phase and will run its course. God knows my ears can barely take that Screamo music...
Ahhh...my Emily...she's 10 and quite the emotional handful! The teen years have come way too early for my liking. She is doing great in school. Straight A's all year long and she's still going strong. The has received every citizenship award this school year. She is student class vice-president and loving every minute. Lord knows she thrives on the attention...maybe a career in politics for her...
Finally there's Rebecca, bringing up the rear in this post, but never in life. Where this child gets her energy, I'd sure like to know! She's doing great in school after a bumpy start with Mrs. Means, yes that is her teachers name! She's like a little sponge, happy to learn anything. Being 6 makes me wonder where my baby has gone. She has grown "UP" so much over the last year. No more baby talk...tho she still says "Panny Cakes"and when she does, my heart melts just a little.
So many things have changed over the past two years, some good some bad, but change it did.
I am blessed with three healthy, and for the most part, happy daughters. Being a single mom is the hardest job I've ever had, yet it is the most rewarding. We are taking it day by day, making our new life together work.
Hannah is 12 going on 30! She is struggling with school right now, but hopefully she is on her way to being back on track. She certainly knows her own mind and who she is...at least for right now...lol. She's into Goth/Emo, and I'm okay with that! While I might get a tad embarrassed by the way she dresses, I know..okay, hope that it is just a phase and will run its course. God knows my ears can barely take that Screamo music...
Ahhh...my Emily...she's 10 and quite the emotional handful! The teen years have come way too early for my liking. She is doing great in school. Straight A's all year long and she's still going strong. The has received every citizenship award this school year. She is student class vice-president and loving every minute. Lord knows she thrives on the attention...maybe a career in politics for her...
Finally there's Rebecca, bringing up the rear in this post, but never in life. Where this child gets her energy, I'd sure like to know! She's doing great in school after a bumpy start with Mrs. Means, yes that is her teachers name! She's like a little sponge, happy to learn anything. Being 6 makes me wonder where my baby has gone. She has grown "UP" so much over the last year. No more baby talk...tho she still says "Panny Cakes"and when she does, my heart melts just a little.
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